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Thursday, September 23, 2021

Autumnal and Pensive: Travelogue Films to Inspire

It is with a heavy heart that I turn from Mabon and the Equinox to the more pensive ponderings and puttering of autumn. Heavy, because I'm going through a lot. Hells, my house is going through a lot, from new adventures to stress to anxiety to panic attacks to heartbreak.

It's all change, which I've always struggled with, according to loved ones. But, generally, much of it is good. I'm grateful for so much, particularly the ludicrous and unlikely publishing and career. But right now, I feel I'm barely keeping up, if at all. As I have said other places, I feel like everything is moving too fast for me, and I am merely standing still in the midst of it all.

It all puts me in a mind of Eddie Vedder's song, "Guaranteed" from his Into the Wild soundtrack.

Got a mind full of questions and a teacher in my soul.
So it goes.
Don't come closer or I'll have to go.


As I turn more pensive, pondering how soon I can work through revisions of my upcoming short story collection Fear Itself, whether I can return to revising my second horror novel, refreshed and reinvigorated, whether I can swing a short-story trade with my currently dormant Little Workshop of Horrors or Queer Speculations writers' group, I feel the need to revisit films that have inspired me, literary or otherwise. 

Their uniting theme is expansiveness and, typically, travel. They're available somewhere, but I leave it to you, fair reader, to find them, wherever they are, in terms of entertainment platforms. Mine is not the role of the platform lister, but more of a guide, pointing anyone who wants to expand their horizons beyond simply escapist entertainment to quandaries of the human condition, to love, loss, tragedy. To inspiration. Maybe you have your own inspirational films. I would be happy to hear about those, too. Perhaps I've not seen them and they could open another new door for me. I like to think, also, that these films prove that the idea of the auteur's film is alive and well, but my argument admittedly has no basis, save that these movies seem earnest visions in these directors' capable hands.


Walter Salles' On the Road
I blogged an involved Sept. 26, 2013 review that you can find here about this stunning adaptation of Jack Kerouac's seminal 1957 Beat Generation novel, so I will not go very deeply into this film here. But I will say that Salles uses pivotal moments in protagonist Sal Paradise's life, moments that change him or give him pause, and posits that such moments inspired Kerouac to pen On the Road.  Versions of these pivots appear in the book. So it's not a straight-up adaptation, but rather a depiction of "What-ifs?", scenes cut from the original draft for either purposes of length of legal reasons, and often debaucherous. In one such instance, Neal Cassady's fictional avatar has sexual escapades with a travelling salesman (played by the inimitable Steve Buscemi) in order to get him and Sal a lift. In the novel, Kerouac worked up such moments as scenes. For those familiar with the book, the Road film is a treasure trove of Easter eggs and nods and winks to the book. As well, for anyone thinking that Salles glorifies the male ego flinging itself fearlessly across America, it's also unflinchingly honest in how Kerouac, his buddy Neal Cassady and other Beat Writers mistreated the women around them. 
In this regard, Elizabeth Moss as Galatea Dunkel, giving the boys what-for, shreds a scene to bits. In this way, female characters confront this sexism and misogyny more than once in the film, which is ironically one better than Ti' Jean did in his Road book. 


Sean Penn's Into the Wild
Penn's directorial effort is also a controversial number. He adapted Jon Krakauer's 1996 novel of the same name, about real-life Christopher McCandless who decided one day to burn his wallet, I.D., money and all, and go live off the grid for three years. I don't think I'm spoiling much to say this leads eventually to a demise, so be forewarned. There are lush travelogue shots. Emile Hirsch's earnest portrayal as Alexander Supertramp, his self-appointed moniker, Minor roles from Vince Vaughn as a satellite-pirating, contract harvest company owner Wayne Westerberg, and Catherine Keener (another older female actor that I harbor quite the torch for) as Jan Burres in a failing, burned-out hippie love affair with Rainey (Brian H. Dierker as Rainey), all round out and bolster this cautionary tale. It's about freedom and the failure of rugged individualism and, possibly, mental illness that, were it treated, might have saved the protagonist's life. Eddie Vedder's soundtrack soars, his baritone intonations carrying viewers across sweeping American vistas and more secluded wilderness. Do you want to hear the story behind the music? Here it is. The story goes that director Sean Penn and pal Eddie sat through the rough cut of Penn's Into the Wild, and Penn asked Eddie, would he like to do the soundtrack? Eddie agreed, for which I am inordinately grateful. I like to think this yarn is true. These two uncompromising individuals, bucking the trends, defy the odds in both the film industry and music industry, just chilling in front of Penn's film. What a wonderful buddy-buddy image. While the movie remains a controversial choice because of the mental-illness question that remains unanswered, it is still undeniably a thing of beauty. Thank you, Sean and Eddie.


Chloé Zhao's Nomadland
Frances McDormand, as always, shines in this adaptation of the—you guessed it—book of the same name by Jessica Bruder. Seeing a pattern in my inspirational films yet? McDormand plays Fern, who loses everything due to the Great Recession, decides to live out of her vehicle, without a permanent residence. She is far from alone, and there many others with stories like hers in the nomadic movement. Fern follows paid work across the mid-west, allowing for not only sprawling western beauty, but also fascinating scenes of the interior of WalMart. The daunting, giant-machine shots contrast completely with the breathy, big-sky scenes of the west, many landmarks of which I recognize from my travels in and around Alberta. There's even a brave skinny-dipping scene, for which McDormand deserves kudos. She plays her age, sixty-ish, which is a blessing for a woman in an industry that brutally ages women out of work unless they play a nagging maternal figure or elder or perhaps a mature seductress, unless they are a Laura Dern or ... a Robin Wright. But I'm getting ahead of myself, here. Fern's restless wanderings have a root cause, revealed in time by director Chloé Zhao. Fern's mournful adventures utterly clash with a staid homestead scene where she has a verbal dust-up with vacuous realtors at an otherwise-friendly family barbecue. Nomadland is simply marvelous, deserving a second viewing. It's also a deeply sad tale, a skewering critique of capitalism and how some individuals decide to take, simply, another road, leaving the idea of a domicile or home behind and finding their own community. Other nomads give their background stories that galvanized their resolve to live on the road. These scenes appear genuine, as in stories narrated by real people, not actors, and are so much sadder and real for it. Unlike the saccharine-sweet pipe dream of the perfect house and white picket fence and orderly life, arguably the most successful con of capitalism ever perpetrated, these stories ring true. The nomad's journeys hew close to the bone, a testament to the human spirit, instead of the endless consumption of consumer goods, whether they be ideas, or physical products.


Robin Wright's Land
Robin Wright stunned me in Land. The parallels to Nomadland go further than the title, as protagonist Edee (Robin Wright) purchases a decidedly off-the-grid acreage of mountain land in Wyoming. The mountains just outside of Calgary, Alberta, double for the state, likely because of lower production costs across the board (again, all of which look marvelously familiar to a regular Alberta visitor such as myself). Like Frances McDormand's Fern, Edee is in mourning, the viewer learns, but about whom Wright reveals in a slow-burning trick. My main qualm with Land was that Eden might actually succeed, alone, in her rugged attempt to survive in a log cabin, without even the least survivalist or camping know-how. My qualm was proven unfounded, though, about a half-hour in. My policy is a no-spoiler one, though, and this a plot-pivoting surprise worth discovering for oneself. Wright appears to be an Amazonian force of nature (an inside joke; she played Princess Diana's mother in the Wonder Woman films), though, as beautiful as ever at her age, and an understated actor in her directorial debut. Some parts are hard to take, as grief figures largely in her motivations. Like Nomadland, it is wise to keep a box of tissues at hand. There's an ending that's a little too pat, but still respectful. The music they overplay a little in parts, scenes where the nature sounds should, in my opinion, be the sole soundtrack. But what Land says about grief, about coping with it, about what we can do, and why we are here and who we are meant to connect with, is profound. Wright's debut is a not only a success, but a success that has something important to say. Kudos to Wright.


Jean-Marc Vallée's Wild
It should be noted that the 2014 film Wild,  directed by Jean-Marc Vallée and adapted from Cheryl Strayed's 2012 memoir Wild: From Lost to Found on the Pacific Crest Trail, starring Reese Witherspoon, is also superb. The indomitable Laura Dern portrays her mother Bobbi Grey in the flashback segments in this story of addiction, grief, and getting in way over one's head. In a surprising bit of casting, Bobbi Lindstrom, the real-life daughter of Cheryl Strayed, plays six-year-old Cheryl. Author Cheryl Strayed has a clear and loud cameo, too. In addition to the sweeping, panoramic nature scenes as in the above films, and a rather deft use of only nature sounds, Wild brings formidable purpose to Strayed's (initially, at least) foolhardy attempts at rugged hiking. As in Land, one might worry the protagonist is not up to snuff, and not worthy of making it to the other end of the trailhead. They would be right, at least at the outset. Told through regular story beats that lay plain why Strayed has thrown herself into this seemingly foolhardy adventure, the script fleshes out the mother character, Strayed's problematic relationship, her demons, each and every one, and even uncomfortably looks at male sexual predators along the way. In short, Wild has much to offer, despite CGI animals that may or may not be Strayed's spirit guides. More succinctly, Wild is like the novel On The Road but with a plot, and a deeper point. To wit—come to terms with your life and your grief instead of escaping into the heady kicks of debaucherous road-tripping. Witherspoon, an oft-underestimated actor early on, because of her ethereal blonde looks and sunny disposition, proves she more than has the chops to bring the viewer through her dark night of the soul. In fact, she and Dern are worth the price of admission, alone, guaranteed. Witherspoon carries the weight of the film on her shoulders, and each actor simply shimmers. 

In closing, please do not take my word as the final verdict on these films. There's a lot to love and arguably a little to contend with in each. But get your head on and explore. I know I don't regret it and have a longing to re-watch each one of these, always proof-positive that a film has left a mark on you that you cannot shake off.

Wednesday, September 22, 2021

Mabon Poetry

Untitled, or, The Moon Knows

The moon peek-a-boos behind the maple’s leafy whispers,
listens, lights my brow, waits for the colour-glow to dim
in my palm out of respect for her presence, waits
for me to tell of this thing weighted in my chest, asunder
down to stomach, waits, with wordless luminescent counsel.

Longing so deep, you mistake it for pleasure.
Loose, hungry, crashing against ribs.
My current of words flows, genuflects under her gaze,
reminds she has resided there always, held
my gaze as a teen steeped in stories of the fantastical,
playing out just past halogen streetlight glow,
oh, the tree line burning with the wine-smell of leaves, fire in the trees,
Bradburys and Kings and Barkers the prophets of my vocation.

But under moon-glow my unrefined coal,
words piled into wheelbarrows,
cascaded out, this kid’s green irises lit beige, heart as
a welcome as the yawning universe.
Now the pretty-pocked face grants mercy, allows
sitting too long in my own and shared darkness on the deck.

A breeze on my neck, as from lips. My ear tickles.
Glabella, they whispered, whisper, in my ear, 
a phantom fingertip, acquainting itself, 
That's what this is called. I like this,
strokes the radiant skin between my lit bloodshot eyes.

Mabon Poetry Notes

Happy Mabon and Fall Equinox, all, "a celebration and also a time of rest after the labour of harvest."

Against my better judgement, perhaps, I feel I myself turning to poetry again. Writing it, that is. It's been an on-off love affair this past decade for poetry and myself, but I have published some things in my day, in online and hard-copy publications. As Leonard Cohen said, "poetry is a verdict".

My work last appeared regularly in Bywords, curated by bi visual poet Amanda Earl. I am listed there as a contributor-poet. I was once even shortlisted for The John Newlove Award for Poetry for my whimsical poem about a closeted film icon (and personal favourite), "Danny Kaye Winks at the Viewer Through Time".

My rule for poetry, years ago, became simple. I would only write about things dear and important to me. No bloodless prose poetry or snake-oil-esque word trickery and play (that should be built in anyway). Only truths dear to my heart. And only pieces that are ready, edited and rewritten and excavated over time until  they reveal their true form to me, much like my speculative fiction. Sometimes, the work has to tell you what it wants to be, and that takes time.

Sunday, September 19, 2021

Collection will be a Wee Bit Late, Guv'nah

My short-story collection Fear Itself is delayed coming out. Instead of fall 2021, it will likely early in 2022 or certainly by April 2022, depending on when the edits are complete. There have been delays in the editing process over the past year, both at the overworked publisher end and at my end, revising the stories. Currently, some revisions are involved and taking longer than either myself or my publisher anticipated. While some stories are previously published, others have been never print or placement. These things happen in the publishing business. The main thing is that the stories will be their best and my collection Fear Itself  will see the light of day in 2022. I’m rather enjoying revising each of the ten pieces in turn right now, actually, from stories about randy giants who are cat-fished and seeking revenge by eating people, in my stoory "Crag Face", to my ex-pat character Sara Jasmine being haunted by her friend Hugh in London, England in ’98 in "A Canadian Ghost in Londin", to a baby monitor that suddenly emits an otherworldly voice on "Monitored" to my terrifying “Glimpses through the trees”, set in Picton, Ontario, regarding a creature you can only see out of your peripheral vision.

Wednesday, July 14, 2021

This thing has gotten to everyoone

This past Monday, spoke to shopkeepers, co-workers, friends, acquaintances, even exes, and detected that the pandemic has turned things into a longer-standing "fuckaroo", to quote Stephen King's Dreamcatcher (stellar beginning, in that novel BTW).  

This thing has ground them down, whether they are weathering bitter divorce, loneliness, anxiety, grief, depression, panic or isolation, and ossifying sadness, defeatist views, even  an inability to compromise after being solitary for so long.

But light is coming through the cracks. Vaccinations, if you are lucky enough, are happening. Socializing is slowly expanding, but exhausting (we are not used to it). Pace yourself.

Treat yourself as you would others, but better. Try to be there for your peeps. If you can, reach out. Send a word-kind, encouraging, loving or event titillating, or give hope.

This thing has gotten to everyone. I might go into more detail later, with whys and wherefores, but the philosophy remains the same. Hold on tight, all.

For my part, I will be camping with my inner circle this weekend. I will be trying to moderate my tendencies even while all the opportunities for two of the three P's (my bad habits) but will have no restraints save those I apply. It is a well-deserved break, but all the planning and interpersonal interactions with friends leading up to it can get pretty little stressed until we land on the site. I am trying to keep this all in perspective. There are much greater problems than planning a camping trip with friends.

Friday, July 2, 2021

Wednesday's bright notes in Covid

I have been dealing with the highs and lows of stress and anxiety in the house through a variety of means, some better than others.

My healthier coping mechanisms include consistent stretching and push-up and sit-ups, as well as walks, and a regular viewing of films of interest and reading of promising comic books.

Still, it seems that despite my best efforts to overindulge in habits that I will not go into detail about here, I find continued success, which seems to surprise no one but me.

After I complained bitterly about my recent egregious short-fiction rejections in a post (that I have since pulled), there have been significant developments. Chief among them is my publisher having a quick video-chat with me yesterday, on Canada Day, to deliver good news. Turns out that a short-fiction collection, which I am currently proofreading for him, earned a rave, advance review in an influential publication in the writing business. My publisher wanted to thank me for helping with this collection and was emphatic that I get working on his edits to my short-story collection, Fear Itself, due out this fall.

In addition, the day previous, I managed, despite feeling desultory about my day’s results, to accomplish a number of things. I rescheduled an upcoming appointment with my psychologist. Cancelled a weird extra vaccination booking that I was texted about (I suspect that someone put down my cell number by mistake, as I already have a second vaccination booked, and a week sooner). Even managed to organize our son's guitar lessons so that he has the summer off.

Spent some solid time on Track-Changes revisions to my second horror novel. I am going through a scene-by-scene clean-up of the manuscript, putting any remaining notes, etc. in a chart, and smoothing out all the rough spots and accepting all consequences to my revisions throughout the story.

Also, spent some time considering the edits to my short story in my short-fiction collection about a phantasm in London, England, listening to my editor and publisher’s input. So, much to ponder! More or less, the ghostly figure in the story needs to pay some sort of price for returning and talking with the protagonist. I agree with that, and I agree that the ghostly figure is a little too perfect, which is no surprise, since they are modelled on my mentor from high school. What the story needs is a little pizzazz, and I trust it to reveal the answer to me in whatever way it wishes.

As well, I also spent some time proofing a short-fiction collection, the very one being praised in advance. I had already edited various drafts of the included novelette, for which the author is quite grateful. At the time of this posting, this review is not public knowledge and will only become so next week, hence my vagueness.

Tuesday, June 15, 2021

Being busy, social isolation, daily inundation

Came to a realization—I am busier than I thought. And I was already busy, with projects left, right and centre, and getting through Covid. I am working some great behind-the-scenes stuff for Lethe Press, attending to my short-fiction collection Fear Itself, bringing in new editing clients and, of course, guiding horror novel number two into the shape it wants to be. So on that note, I decided I will not be around on social media much, and more in a waiting-in-the-wings approach than terribly active, so I can do my thing.

At this stage in the pandemic, social isolation has taken a noticeable toll on my inner circle, with  neither emails or tweets or phone calls for weeks. For my part, I am great with initial emails, and the rare phone call, but then I may take week after week to reply.

So as we all wait for our second vaccination date, assuming we were lucky enough to already have the first vaccination, we have maladjusted to lockdown measures in Ottawa and simply retreated a little more each passing day, week, month. During the onset of the pandemic, it seemed there was almost a pause in the workday pace, and we could almost catch our breath as anxiety threatened to drown us. Now, we are inundated and workdays are full, in addition to taking care of ourselves, our houses, our loved ones, and continually navigating the now-inscrutable codes of Covid-19.

I’m feeing a lack of focus right now, hence my musings on the current vibe of the pandemic.